Coping skills

Coping skills, yes we all need them, and I do try to use something other than making the weather chaotic, and keeping the harvest from producing, because that just affects so much more than me, and Zeus gets all pissy, like he has any room to talk!

So, I like to read, and I like to paint, and color!  Here are a few things I have done lately:

 

this started out as a rust color with black "distressed" overlay, and I was in a blue mood.  I think you might detect a theme here in a minute!!

        

 

I want to put something in the middle, but I can't decide, I was going to write something, but my hand writing isn't sort of sucks!   So for now I am leaving it as is!

And as I said, I like to color.  This is in our window, it is from a coloring book, but it is supposed to look like stained glass.  I am pretty sure I am fooling no one, but I did have fun coloring it!


So that is my blue period.  We will see what comes next, it might even be more blue!!

Kisses and abundance, and hang in there peeps better weather is coming, Persephone should be here to stay any time!!

Icy attitude

Okay, I know we all want nicer weather, but look at how pretty I made the trees!!

Kisses and hugs!
Demeter

therapist

Hello!  Yes, Persephone is really here, I just am hanging out with her, the warmer weather will be back after I spend some time with my best girl!  And I started with my therapist, you try explaining that you have a child by your brother and see how warm and fuzzy you feel after!

I went to see Staci on Wednesday, and the first meeting went, well, though I do get tired of slogging through all the stuff from the past.  But I can get tell it all with no tears, and I never thought I'd ever be there, so that is good.  I won't see her again until April, but she doesn't have a set time she can see me after my work hours, until May.  So then we will decide if I do once a week, twice a month etc...

I feel pretty good about seeing Staci, I have had to work through the emotions of really needing to see a therapist, that I can't work things out alone.  I prefer to isolate, and frankly stick my head in the sand, if I ignore it long enough it will go away, right?  Yeah, not so much, and I get that, and I am so very tired of life being like this, I am ready to live it differently, unless it is hard, then I may reconsider.

This past weekend, I got some art supplies, paints and some canvases, and coloring books.  One of the mandalas I colored I actually put in the window.  Pictures later when the hubby tells me how to add them!

Well, I actually feel pretty good so far, I have been meditating, journaling, and working on my overall gratitude.  I wasn't depressed at all during this cycle, and that was pretty darn fantastic!!!

Well, oodles to do.

Kisses and abundance!
Demeter

Persephone is coming!!

Well as you all know my dearest Persephone is coming back!  I am so excited!  It also means my allergies flair but who cares!  LOVE my girl, I do I do, searched and searched for her you understand, and thanks again Hecate for the help!

So in starting my year of self-care, I have been journaling, and in doing so I realized what I really really need is a therapist.  I have done this in the past, and it helped, sort of.  I understand you get out of therapy what you put into it, and looking back I see I wanted to impress my therapist and I wanted her to think, "she really is fine and doesn't need to see me!", along the same mentality as doing your hair before going to the salon.  So I don't think I really got as much out of it as I could have, had I really opened up.  This time, I am ready, mostly I think.  This counselor deals with issues my other one didn't, such as eating disorders and body dismorphia.  And I really need to work on my food problems, I can't seem to get those worked out on my own.  I have insights in regards to them, but get no further than that.  I see her on Wednesday, so reports later in the week!!


I wish you all well this week!! 

Kisses, and abundance!
Demeter

P.S.  I will see Staci from The Rock Counseling Group
http://www.therockcounselinggroup.com/Our-Counselors.html

Ostara

Ostara is coming up, and in getting ready for that celebration, I decided that this is the year I will really commit to taking care of me.  This is the year I will take care of all parts of me, my spiritual needs, mental and emotional needs and physical needs, nutrition and exercise.  I have tried doing all of these things over the years, but never all at once, though I honestly feel they are all related.

So I am not sure how I will do all of this, so it could also be a year of experiments.  I have started an e-course for gratitude and meditation, and that has helped a great deal.  http://inspiredbalance.wordpress.com/everyday-peace/   Elise is fantastic, and I would highly recommend her course.

I also got a medicine bundle from Pixie Campbell  http://www.etsy.com/shop/pixiecampbell  She has lots of great bundles and other art work.  You can check out her blog too, I learn lots from her.  I use the bundle for meditation, and I love it!!

I am also not sure how often I will post, we will see.  So I am ready and willing to try something new, join me for the ride?

Kisses and corn!

Demeter